blue hours
after Amy Key
there is love and not-love lodged
as a small feather in my throat
I cough it up on a blue morning
take the feather as a song to my mouth
know it bodily and
notice what accrues
it sounds like desire in the early morning
when you are free to be consumed by it
the pigment of blue is just so
it allows you to walk into it
what I have witnessed
in this blue version of a life
standing at the shoreline
holding tight to my body
what do you tend to
underneath a world that is changing colour
I reach for the shared feeling
like twin violets and pluck from the roots
you have my attention
you flower, you unknowable absentee
I only dream of you
I barked through the night wanting
awoke on afternoon wings
a bluish stain on my bedsheets
feelings sloshed inside me like
a bad meal
I felt language rearrange me
then leave me behind
on the hot driveway of my youth
I saw my own future
and left it behind
Stacey Teague (Ngāti Maniapoto/Ngāpuhi) is a writer, editor and teacher living in Te Whanganui-a-Tara.