blue hours

after Amy Key

 

there is love and not-love lodged

 

as a small feather in my throat

 

I cough it up on a blue morning

 

take the feather as a song to my mouth

 

know it bodily and

 

notice what accrues

 

it sounds like desire in the early morning

 

when you are free to be consumed by it

 

the pigment of blue is just so

 

it allows you to walk into it

 

what I have witnessed

 

in this blue version of a life 

 

standing at the shoreline

 

holding tight to my body

 

what do you tend to

 

underneath a world that is changing colour

 

I reach for the shared feeling

 

like twin violets and pluck from the roots

 

you have my attention

 

you flower, you unknowable absentee

 

I only dream of you

 

I barked through the night wanting

 

awoke on afternoon wings

 

a bluish stain on my bedsheets

 

feelings sloshed inside me like

 

a bad meal

 

I felt language rearrange me

 

then leave me behind

 

on the hot driveway of my youth

 

I saw my own future

 

and left it behind

 

Stacey Teague (Ngāti Maniapoto/Ngāpuhi) is a writer, editor and teacher living in Te Whanganui-a-Tara.

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